Sunday Confessional: A Bittersweet After-Church Snack

Today David came home from church and had his first right-after-church snack in about 2 1/2 years.  A sandwich, some yogurt, crackers, apple.

Afterward he took a little nap, read some stories to the boys, took turns throwing them from couch to couch and then helped me cook dinner.  After dinner he played some piano while I read and the boys played with the parachute man off the upstairs landing.  Then we sat around with Mormor and sang Head Shoulders Knees and Toes, Once there was a Snowman and the Wise and foolish Man. 

It was a lovely Sunday afternoon. 

And a different Sunday afternoon

Because David is home again.

Today he was released as the Bishop of our ward.

I never mentioned on here that this move will take us over the ward boundaries and will cause us to be moved to a different ward and building.  And that is because we didn't quite know what would happen in our case.  For those of you who aren't familiar with this process in the LDS church, because the church is world wide we are split up into what we call wards and you attend a ward depending on your location.  Kind of like school boundaries.  When you move out of your boundary, you switch wards and you are released from your volunteer "callings" in the ward.  Our clergy is not a paid clergy and everyone in the church serves on a volunteer basis.

David and I were both asked to share our testimonies today in sacrament meeting and I pretty much just cried for the whole allotted two minutes. 

This is even hard to write.  I have so much to say and maybe I will have to share some of my deeper thoughts at another time. 

It's like this:  You pray about something, get an answer and make a decision and then when the decision comes to the forefront you find yourself wanting to say NOOOOO!!!  I made a mistake!!!!!!!!!  (But really, you know that you didn't make a mistake, it is just painful and hard even though you know that it is right?).  Have you had this feeling?? That is sort of how I felt today.   We know that this move is right for our family.  We have prayed about it and we feel like this will be a good home and a good area for us.  We are very very sad to leave our ward.  We have loved every minute of serving there. 

As David said today in his testimony though, no matter where our family is taken, we will serve with all of our hearts.  We look forward to serving in the Jones Falls Ward, to meet new people and get aquainted with a new area.  We just really really hope to stay in contact with our dear Susquehanna Ward friends that we will miss so so much.  Pinky promise me that we are still friends?  I can still come to playgroup?
   
Like I said, more thoughts to come and more reflections -- maybe next Sunday.  I just can't write anymore tonight.  Such a bittersweet and entirely emotional day.  Really, I cried through the entire first half of the meeting.  Okay, maybe the whole meeting. 

This is hard.